So, I failed my New Year’s resolution…

Never one to make resolutions in the first place, I did make one for 2020. I should have known better.

I had resolved to do a headstand by the end of the year. I know to some, this may seem like a very simple goal, but it’s not something I have ever been able to do, even as a kid. I thought it was a nice attainable goal to set for myself. But, I failed.

I can lift up against a wall and then balance, but in my head, my goal was to just lift up off the ground gracefully up into a headstand. And I’m definitely not there yet.

I could blame 2020 for my failed attempt at a resolution, but the truth is I just didn’t put in the work. No excuses. I did find it was easier to work on this at the gym (after I fell flat on my back during the summer trying at home, I decided the gym was safer). However, sucking at this, made me extremely self-conscious and so I often avoided working on it when other people were at the gym. I’m not even going to mention the two months worth of closures that my gym went through. This was on me.

So, where do I go from here? I have accepted that I am not going to reach my goal by midnight tonight. All I can do, it pick up where I left off next year. I’m a little afraid to declare a resolution again, as like many people, I hate to fail. And it sucks to even admit that I have failed at something that could have been achieved.

But, I’m going to put my humiliation aside and decide to try again. Knowing how shitty I feel to fail, maybe I’ll make sure to put in the work and really achieve this goal in 2021.

Here’s to failed resolutions, closed gyms, quarantine weight and social isolation and for making it through 2020. I hope you have a wonderful new year!